Business Experience (Rookie)

Dear you,

It's been so long since my last post. The reason is because I don't have any idea to post. But I will make one post now.

Do you remember when I told you that I have a business in shoe called Tafencee? 

Last June I finished my Second Terms and jumped into Long Holiday in my lovely Hometown, Makassar. 

The same case happened to my business partners. That thing resulted our business be in a mess.

We had no money to use to make the shoes (even though we had given big amount money that was not even ours. meaning:parents).

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We was very desperate..

Actually we had knew the fact that we had run out of money a few weeks before the Final Exam, and some of my partners were talking bad about it. They said they regretted their money and felt like the money wouldn't come back. I was not part of it at first. I thought the business was very prospect and would make big cash. But then I realized I needed to reach deeply into my pocket to finance the business and make it very profitable. It didn't mean that I didn't want to give money but the money I took was all from my parents. I don't want make experiment in business using my parents money un-responsibly. Also my friend convinced me to quit and build a new business with them. 

I was thinking days about letting go Tafencee since the idea is very brilliant. But after 3 days my friend made me leave Tafencee. She forced me to make decision at that time and I decided to leave Tafencee and joined her. After that,,, I regret.

That was the type of person I am. It's very hard for me to make decision because I am afraid of the risk I am going to take in the future.

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Back to topic, I joined her business with a regret left and of course you can guess that I didn't put my whole heart into it. I felt the business was very strange and have very little market. Also it came from a trend so it will fade away as time by gone. I don't want a temporary business, I want a sustain business. (of course every body does)

The new Semester came and we need to present our business idea and the lecturers would decide whether our idea agreed or not. I want disagreement.

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And what comes from heart will come true. Our idea received disagreement and I think it was actually because what I said to my lecturer just before the presentation.

The lecturers suggested us to open business according to our passion. My passion is in make up and my partner in nail art. A few days after we created new business model canvas and we end up with Endelig, a make up and nail art business. Not an innovative one but no burden to run.

In Fact?
It is very hard. We face problems from make up suppliers. Also we don't have enough skill to perform a wonderful nail art. It's hard but bearable. 

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The real problem comes from myself and my partner.

I am getting lazier and lazier. I don't really wanna think about anything (which is impossible because I am the CEO now) and don't have motivation. I don't know what happened to me. I know I love make up so much that I can't even describe it with words but I can't do business in make up. I hated myself for that. I always see the challenges and disabilities. I don't know what makes me like this but.... I just don't know.

Source: http://www.myeftcoach.com

Also my partner has the same type as myself. She need to be pushed to do something. How am I supposed to push her when I can't even push myself? Stupid, isn't it? (Sign of Failure)

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I DON"T want to FAIL. But I can't push myself. It is personal conflict X_X

By the way support me just by liking Endelig's facebook page. I thank you so much if you do that now :D

I hope you enjoy my letter

Be awesome,

Nathasa

NB: I change my letters closure for fun :D